It's been about six weeks since I started with Keller Williams Boston-Metro and I couldn't be happier! I didn't think I would get to a place where I felt like I found what I was intended to do in life but now I have! I get to go to work and be surrounded by amazing people who are open hearted and inspiring, I truly look forward going into work everyday. I know that I'm going to learn something new simply by being around my colleagues. Though we all work in our separate real estate businesses we are all a team and that is what separates of from the rest! ​

I had originally taken the real estate class last year but in the interim of starting my charity the Talie Marie Foundation I found myself mentally in a place that wasn't cohesive to starting on a new career path. I realized that I had ghost I didn't even know I had. . . I needed to face those before I could continue the path I was on. Surrounding myself with a support system that encouraged me and was present in my life when I needed their positivity the most. In the end I came out stronger and more determined to achieve my goals both in my charity and in my new real estate career. I'm blessed to now have a positive and encouraging support system in my new career. Most importantly to have found where I belong! With that being said. . . Never stop. . . Life can be overwhelming but if you find the right people to surround yourself with you will grow in strength and positivity! I love what I do so please check out my real estate website and it would be an honor to be able to assist you in any of your future real estate transaction! 
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www.TalieMarie.KW.com
& Check out my personal mobile APP! 

​OK Time for work! 

Thanks for reading, God Bless!
 
<3 Talie Marie

Recently I have been listening to the song "Burning House" by country musician Cam, this song instantly struck a cord within my heart. During an interview on the radio Cam had talked about how this song was about a past love but for me the lyrics made me think of a past me. . . The me that was scared and afraid and would try to hide herself away from dealing with the emotions building up inside me. . . 
The section of song that speaks to me the most is,
I've been sleepwalking, been wandering all night
Trying to take what's lost and broke and make it right
I've been sleepwalking too close to the fire
But it's the only place that I can hold you tight
In this burning house
For so long I felt lost and broken with no end in sight, but as time went on and I discovered my own strength and courage and I was able to see that I wasn't broken. The truth is I feel like a different person all together. . . Who I was then is still apart of me but the person I am now holds that person I once was tight to ease the pain.
I never want to be that person again but I also don't want to let her go, I wish I could go back in time as the person I am now to ease her pain and give her the feeling of safety and love. 
I have posted Cam's video below, take a few minutes to listen to this beautiful song. . . 
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Thanks for reading, God Bless!
 
<3 Talie Marie

These past couple months have been exceptionally hard for me. . . I have found that my day-to-day struggling with my emotions has become unpredictable. My anxiety has become more present in my daily functions and has slowly become a hinderance in achieving my goals. The honest truth is that I have wanted to post on several occasions but I found myself battling to allow the thoughts to escape me freely. 
Depression and Anxiety are two diagnoses I have had for over 20 years and over those years I've had many trying times when attempting to handle them on my own without medical help or assistance. 
I have know for a while now that I needed help, more help than just talking to someone in passing about how I have been feeling. With that said I have decided to talk with my doctor this week about prescription options that will help me balance out my anxiety and depression. I want to post this because so many people who face the same feelings of depression and anxiety often don't get the help they need because of their fear of the negative sigmas attached to mental health.
Maybe if we as a society where more open minded about the realities of mental health illnesses more people would feel less ashamed and instead feel strong enough to receive the help they deserve.
I will be posting about depression and anxiety, my personal battles during these recent months. . .

Thanks for reading, God Bless!
 
<3 Talie Marie

So much in my life is changing and it's all for the better! For the past few years my life has been a roller coaster but now I have a new plan for a new start for my new life...

For a while I had lost hope that things would workout for the better, I allowed my discouragement to cloud my path to my own professional and personal success.

I've learned that people come and go in our lives and that's OK, but we must not let their absence affect how we move towards our desired future... Dwelling on the past is not the answer it is just part of the distraction.

I've made a choice to change my path by changing my career... I'm working towards getting me MA Real Estate License! There is a tremendous amount of fear when you change path but if your excitement out weighs your fear... you have made the right choice. I know the next few weeks while preparing myself for the licensing exam will be stressful butI was fortunate enough to have chosen a wonderful Real Estate School... The Freedom Trail Realty School was amazing and has given me hope that I can tackle the licensing exam head on... 

Hope is sometimes what we think we have lost but in other times it is what we cling to the most... In our day to day lives we all feel hope at some point... Hope is a power that in my opinion can drive someone to achieve greatness or find peace in their lives... Long live the hope in all of us...

Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie

Throughout my journey I was once asked what my legacy I was going to leave behind to show the world I was here and the work I'm doing. After long considerationI decided to start a charity foundation but I wanted it to be about helping people and not money.
So I started the Talie Marie Foundation, my charity collects donated blank journals with messages of hope or a prayer in the inseam of the journal to give the receiver a boost in times when they may feel alone or need a pick me up from someone... your words may be just that to someone in a time of need.
Now that the Talie Marie Foundation is finally here it is time to collect those journals! 

" I took the #TalieMarieFoundation #JournalDonationChallenge : Take it with me!
http://www.taliemarie.com/talie-marie-foundation.html "

By helping me spread the word you are helping so many others not just in recovery but those who may know someone who is effected by sexual violence, domestic violence, and suicide.
I know that journaling has been one of the key elements to my personal recovery and if I can help just one person by giving them an outlet then all of this is worth it. 

Please send your journal donation to:

Talie Marie Foundation
58 Parker St
Chelsea MA, 02150

Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie

I highly recommend this book to all, from the bottom of my heart I truly appreciate the effort put into this book.

To Purchase or download this book select a link below!

Barnes and Noble : 
http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/to-the-survivors-robert-uttaro/1117245060?ean=9781490931661 

Barnes and Noble Nook Book: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/to-the-survivors-robert-uttaro/1118002648?ean=2940045546027


Amazon : http://www.amazon.com/Survivors-Journey-Counselor-Stories-Violence/dp/149093166X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1435610493&sr=8-1&keywords=to+the+survivors

Kobo : https://store.kobobooks.com/en-US/ebook/to-the-survivors-1

You can also find this book on Smashwords.com and iTunes! Due to the content I couldn't post the link to these sites because you need to allow the content. 

Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless!

<3 Talie Marie

     Over the years I have thought of strength as something that at times I lacked but I was able to hide behind a false image during those times. I was able to easily hide behind jokes and my work for many years but when I was laidoff I was faced with immense time on my hands. It didn't take long to realize that I wasn't completely in control and being a complete control freak made me feel weak. 
     I tried and tried to hide away those feelings but with time they wore me down. I discovered RAINN by recommendation of a friend and I can honestly say that first call changed my life. . . . I felt completely terrified of what the person on the other line might think of me but by the end of the call I was one step closer to finding some of my strength back. RAINN throughout the years has helped me immensely and thank you just isn't enough for what they have done for me and so many others. Unfortunately we can revert to our weaknesses when we are least expecting it. . . . 
     I have recently been feeling that same haunting feeling of weakness. . . . Sometimes it's easily concealed and other times it's tears pouring from my eyes when I'm alone. For weeks I've struggled with this because of some professional changes I've decided to take on but the truth is sometimes your strength is in the people within your support system who can see your cracks before you can. I have been blessed with amazing people in my life who are loving and kind but most importantly supportive of me in this journey. 
     Sometimes we forget they are there because the emotions inside are coming on to strong, I realized recently how lucky I am to have certain people in my life who are just there to be a friend sitting next to me in silence or to listen when I'm ready to share without judgement. . . . I always though being strong could only be from my own thoughts and actions but I was wrong. . . . It comes from all of that but also the thoughts and actions of those close to me. 
     Thank you to everyone who has been a loving and caring support in my life and through the process of writing my story. So many of you have touched my life and I hope that someday when I have the opportunity to tell you how grateful I am that I will have the strength to do so. . . . 
     I want to say a very special thank you to my dearest friend Megan, you have been someone who has lifted my up when I've been down. You a truly amazing friend and wonderful human being. . . . I know in my heart of hearts that we will always be connected to one and other. I truly hope that I'm as good of a friend to you as you have been to me! 
       If there is anyone who may need to talk in regards to Sexual or Domestic Violence please contact RAINN!
 https://ohl.rainn.org/online/ This organization helps victims, family members, and friends affected by these situations. They are 24/7 and truly some of the kindest people I have ever spoken with. 
    Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie

     Hey everyone, it has been a while since my last post because of dealing with some unexpected personal issues. Over the past few months I have been trying to deal with some depression symptoms and the effect they have had on my personal life. I weighed the options of this post and sharing seemed to be the right choice. Scary as it seems I know by sharing this part of me I can possibly help someone who might be going through the same this feel like they are not alone. 
     Depression is a mental disorder that can sneak up on you quietly and quickly, without help one can drift deeper into a depressive state. Sometimes it is easy to recognize and then there are those times that you're blind to all the signs. 
     This journey has been tough but I know I need to keep going forward and with a great support system in place I can achieve anything!
     More post more often! Lots of Love! Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie

     We all seek balance throughout our lives, sometimes the search is difficult to find the one thing that keeps us going and allows us to strive for more. For me I was introduced to CrossFit, and I knew instantly that I had found something. . . What I wasn't quite sure of at first but I knew it was something I needed to pursue.
     Thank you to a very special man in my life named Dan who was my introduction into CrossFit, you are an amazing man who supports me no matter what. I'm truly grateful to have someone who is so supportive in my life. 

  At the beginning I struggled and wasn't sure if I could do CrossFit but as the days turned into weeks and my body started to feel stronger I realized I found what I was missing. I felt drive again, accomplishment in myself.  I started CrossFit thinking it was just me VS the WOD but I quickly realized that though you may be doing the workout on your own, you are surrounded by people who want nothing more than for you to succeed and grow. 
     I have been blessed to have meet amazing coaches who push me further than I myself think I can go. Megan, John, Shane, Sergio, Andrew, and Colleen . . . You have all helped me in so many ways that I can't possibly express how grateful I am. From the bottom of my heart . . . Thank You!
     I'm looking forward to seeing my future in CrossFit, I know with all of you I can't fail!
     Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie

     I have been working on this book for almost two years now and over that time I have struggled with seeing the words on the screen in front of me. I have had to take breaks from writing to better collect my thoughts and emotions. I never thought that I would have these struggles with expressing myself through writing because it has always been one of the only ways I have been able to successfully express myself. 
     When I first started to write my story I simply blurted it out into the keys on my laptop, I just wanted the bulk of the pain out but there was a moment that I will never forget. The first time I typed the words "rape", my hands froze and my heart sank. I stared at the screen for hours that long Saturday afternoon, looking at the word like it was going to change or somehow not apply to me. Just thinking about that moment makes my heart race and my palms sweat. 
     There is no preparation for the first time you see that word "rape" and know it is apart of you for the rest of your life. It's like when you say it for the first time, for me my mouth went dry and my chest became heavy. There is so much emotion that explodes inside of someone who has suffered a sexual assault when you start to face the road ahead not knowing what will be in your path. For many the path is a lonely and fearful one, I myself have felt that many times and it is never easy to reach out when you don't know what it truly is that you need. 
     Having these struggles has caused me to miss a few deadlines but having a publisher whom understands the difficulties of this journey for me has been a blessing. I know that over the next month I will be faced with more challenges when dealing with editing, looking back through all of the struggles of the past two years will not be easy but it will all be worth it in the end. I will be stronger because of the journey. 
     Thanks for reading everyone, God Bless.

<3 Talie Marie
     

     I have suffered from night anxiety for as long as I can remember. . . Last week I had had most nights disturbed by night anxiety attacks. I usually wake around 3:30 every morning but can fall back to sleep within the hour, but a couple of nights in a row I had had the unfortunate experience of severe night anxiety attacks that wouldn't allow me to relax enough to fall back asleep. 
     Every so often this happens and it makes my day to day life during this time rather difficult. This particular few days was hard, I found myself struggling to focus on anything. My heart would start to race for no reason at all and I felt like I was losing control of myself and my thoughts. It all happens so fast that I can't stop it, all I can do is try to slow it down but after a few days of minimal sleep that isn't easy. 
     The problem is that when your in these panic attacks you don't always know how your reacting to other people around you. For me, I have those moments of realization when I finally get sleep. Then I feel awful for how I might have treated or shut down on people I care for or respect. For me I make a point to apologize to anyone I feel that I might have been snippy towards. Showing people that you can acknowledge your actions is a way of showing that you treasure their presence in your life.
     If your having trouble sleeping try Melatonin, it is an all natural sleep support that helps you fall asleep. I highly recommend it!
     Thanks for reading everyone! 

<3 Talie Marie

     This is the story of my journey as I finish writing my first book about my history with childhood sexual violence and my recovery to date. I have dedicated my life to helping others whom have also suffered from sexual or domestic violence in their life. This journey has been very difficult thus far but I want to share the good and the bad because it may help someone whom may feel that same way and may feel that they are alone in their situation.
     If you or someone you know is a victim or survivor of sexual or domestic violence please check out RAINN. RAINN is the nations latest anti sexual violence organisation in the USA and offers services both through the national hotline 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or online at https://ohl.rainn.org/online/. These services are not just for victims or suvivors but for family and friends whom may need someone to talk to or help better understand the circumstances of sexual or domestic violence. 
     Thank you for reading and welcome to my journey! I invite any and all questions and comments! 

<3 Talie Marie